My sweet little Jake
Talk about seeing through “rose colored glasses” Jake told me “You are so beautiful mommy”. On my good days it is seldom that I hear such compliments fall from the lips of my children much less my husband. Jake said this on the day I was sick with bronchitis and possibly the flu. I was curled up in my husband’s big leather chair, coughing like a man, with a horrible headache and looking like death. Of all the times to think of beauty this would be the last time possible. My little Jake sees straight through the physical appearance of gross illness but instead sees the core of who he loves most in this world, the mom who cares for him, the woman who loves him more than any other person possibly can or ever will in this world. That alone is worth being a mom. What a bonus of parenthood to be loved beyond what one thinks possible by another human being.
I believe that is how God views us. We believe we are at our worst having sinned again thinking God could no longer see any beauty in us that it is stained and tarnished. God witnesses that vulnerability and can cut straight through the faults to see the beauty He Himself created and He loves us unconditionally. No matter what you have done, or what you have not done, No matter how bad and gross you feel about yourself. You need only to say your sorry and try harder next time. However, even before those words of apology are spoken God still loves you and can see the beauty in you. Just like Jake saw the beauty in me his mommy all curled up, disheveled and ill.
